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2 years ago
and YOU had a bad day!? or did you.
so march 31st, 2010 will go down as one of my worst days ever … maybe. It all started when my sub conscious decided my alarm wasn’t valid and made my body shut it off, so while getting an extra 1.5 hours of sleep was nice, waking up in a panic was not … this set the tone for the rest of the day. Running constantly from the time I got up until I got home this evening the day was filled with many … shall we say “unfun” things. Seems like everyone had somewhere else to be that helps out with our WiRED student service, so it put set up, media, and some other things behind a bit. After spending a fair amount of time setting up mediashout for our projector that night I was informed that the bulb had blown out on sunday, so there was no point in that. Still feeling super stressed at this point. Students start arriving around 6pm for the service and things were alright. Called in some favors and people really came through making sure even with last minute people missing everything happened. A bit before service I had to ask myself if it was my own pride that was stressing me out or was I being taught a lesson that sometimes God wants us to be uncomfortable. Since it’s His service anyways. That’s something Perry Noble brought up at UNLEASH conference about a month ago. ”What if God wants you to be ticked off?” We get in our groove were everything is going amazing and that’s when our pride sneaks in and makes us believe we actually had a part in it … ”I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out.” - romans 7:18.
Sometimes it takes a swift kick in the rear as a reminder that we’re worthless on our own and it’s not about anything we do. Don’t get me wrong, we’re more valuable than all the riches in this world as God’s children, but that’s still not about us. It’s about His glory, not ours. If today wasn’t “unfun” enough, on the way home there were 2 dogs running down the middle of a dark road, I couldn’t miss them both and hit one of them … turned around to see it dragging itself into the ditch. I had to call his owner and tell them their dog Max would be dead soon. Sometimes we let good things take us over. Does God want good things for us? Absolutely, not even good things, but great things if we’re yearning for Him. There’s a fine line though between living for His glory and playing a great role to make people think we’re not the leading actor we so want to be. Max died shortly after his owner arrived, he laid in that ditch knowing he was dying.
Tonight we talked about Stephen and the introduction of Saul (later Paul) and how Stephen did what he new was right even when death was looming over him and at that point in Sauls life was holding the coats of those who were to kill him. We asked the question “Am I a Stephen? Willing to do what’s right and needing for God’s glory” or “Am I a Saul, holding the coats of those destroying Christ followers?” Following Christ is not easy, if it were everyone would do it, but back to Max. After I hit max, I turned around to see how bad things were. Max knew he was dying and went into the ditch to die. He made until his owner arrived and called out to him. We’re told that tomorrow isn’t promised, I feel absolutely terrible that I was the one driving on that road at that time. I wish those dogs hadn’t gotten out of their fence. I wish I didn’t have to look someone in the eye and tell them I killed their family pet. I wish I wasn’t messed up. I wish Jesus didn’t have to die for me and you. I wish I had control over anything that happened. I wish people weren’t still getting stoned to death in the world over religion. I wish people would stop following Satan. I …. it doesn’t matter what I wish. It matters what God wishes. As “bad” of a day as it was, God is still in control of everything. Maybe I needed to have a “bad” day, maybe I needed to be ticked off, maybe I needed to not have so much “I” today. Maybe there needed to be more of God today and it wouldn’t have been such a “bad” day after all?
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